Let Hope Arise...

This past weekend has been a rough one. It's the continuation of the Roller Coaster affect known as Buying a House. Being this close to our closing date (which was yesterday), we couldn't help but get excited and expectant that we would be moving in. You know that saying, "No news is good news?" It's definitely how I live when it comes to buying a house. It's probably the wrong way to look at this situation, but no news has given me hope.

Friday the owner asked for an extension. He wanted to the 29th, which is the day we're supposed to be out of our apartment. I started to panic and even teared up a bit. In my mind, I'm thinking, "What do we do?!" We gave him to the "25th or sooner." 

Sunday, I ran into my Realtor at the grocery store and he gave me a glimmer of hope that would allow us to close probably this week. I held onto that glimmer of hope and allowed it to lift me up.

Monday rolls around and my hope is smashed into the ground and grounded up into small dust like pieces.

This is where our house stands. Ground into dusty little pieces.

One minute we're on cloud nine, the next we're in a deep depression. One minute we have hope, the next, despair. I'm beginning to have serious doubts that we'll ever call this place home or ours. I hate feeling like I've wasted my time, energy, money, and hope on this house. Home buying seems like a club that's REALLY HARD to get into. 

Sometimes when I get together with my younger brother, we joke around that we're creating a club and when the other person teases us, we say, "you're not allowed in my club." If you get invited into my brother's club, he tells you that your membership cards are in the mail. I feel like my membership card for home buying is lost in the mail. 

BUT God. But God has a plan for my life, he has a plan for this process. I believe He has my best interests at heart. I know that if this house doesn't work out in the end, that He has something better in mind. Better does not necessarily mean bigger, or without the need for repairs, but it might mean motivated owners with a decent house. I pray that through this process that the relationship between my husband and I is strengthened as we face the hope and discouragement of this process. 

I was listening to a song this morning. I think it's such an uplifting and encouraging song. One part says, "So let hope arise and darkness tremble in Your holy light! That every eye will see Jesus our God, great and mighty to be praised!" In the song, You feel hope arising inside of you, and the part where it says "Darkness tremble" sounds like a thunderstorm. I just pray that this is what happens in our situation, that hope rises and darkness trembles and dispels, never to return. 

I pray that hope rises and darkness trembles and dispels in your situation too. 

Seems we all need this.